MORE LOST THAN EVER. . . AND LOVING IT!

Oh Lost, how I LOVE you. Is anyone else addicted to this show?

Well, I have to admit that J.J. Abrams and friends are really bringing the heat this season. It is absolutely fan-double-tastic. Okay, I just want to take a minute and say that I so totally called this whole time travel thing about a year ago. I wrote all about it on one of my blogs, but I'm afraid it was my other one which is now private. But you will just have to take my word for it.


Okay, now onto this seasons yummy-ness. Okay, first off, after I watched the show the first time (yes, I am that addicted) I didn't think it was that great. Just kinda EH. But after watching it for the second time I've come up with ALOT. That episode actually was very telling. For instance after watching it again, I am starting to think that Ellie (that young gun-crazed other) is actually Eloise (Ms. Hawking) that white haired lady that told Desmond to go on the journey where he ultimately left Penny and ended up on the island. After watching young Ellie and the way she talks (with her mouth) I am convinced. I also think Ellie is Daniel Faraday's mother. And that is why he says she looks familiar. I also have two different theories about Daniel's father. Either he is Charles Widmore (that young angry other, and also Penny's father and also the old angry guy). Or his father could be someone else that looks oddly similar to Daniel which is why Ellie says to Daniel that he was just there. But I guess with all the time travel mumbo jumbo he could really have been just there. The only thing about Ellie being Daniels mother that bothers me, is I'm wondering if this is TOO obvious, and the writers are wanting us to think this. And then WHAM. We will learn something else. And the other thing about Eloise? She is in cahoots with both Charles Widmore and Ben. Which is wierd. Since Widmore is funding Faraday's research. And Charles and Ben are supposed enemies. Oh, and by the way, who names a rat after their mother?

Okay, on to other stuff. That big H bomb thing would explain alot of stuff. Why for instance Desmond ends up in a bunker hatch. And why he was wearing that hazmat suit. Also the radio active leakage would also explain why all the ladies on the island are having fertility problems.


And just for a minute can we talk about Richard? He is creepy and wierd, and I must get the name of his moisturizer. He looks fantastic for his age. But Locke showing up and telling him to go to his birth certainly explains earlier episodes with Richard and Locke. But does not explain how they chose their leaders. Richard says he takes orders. But really, I guess he just took orders from Locke. And now Locke eventually ends up being the leader of the others because of this little time jump?! Ahh, so confusing. But oh so fun at the same time!


Oh, and one more thing. I'm sure most of you were thinking how cute that Des and Penny named their kid Charlie. I however, did not. Considering that his grandfather is evil and wicked and also named Charles/Charlie. This didn't seem so wise. Or cute. Or thoughtful.


Now, after this little confusing post I am in definite need of some Perspective.





Do you have any other thoughts about last nights ep that I missed? I am so addicted. I love this show!

EPIPHANY

Yesterday, Thing 2 got the unusual pleasure of attending dance class on a Tuesday since she had a makeup for a class she had previously missed. After she got her tights, leo and skirt on, she usually likes to go and look at herself in the mirror (of course). Yesterday was no exception.

As she was standing there admiring herself, she said: "You are the most beautiful princess dancing girl in the {whole} wide world. You are so pretty, and look like glitter. Your hair is yellow and beautiful and straight just like mommy's."

{Insert sigh here}

And it hit me. How do I hold onto that? Bottle up that self-esteem? How do I provide an environment where she will always feel that way about herself? Because it is the absolute truth. She is amazing. And gorgeous. And smarter than any two-year old I know. She says the most amazing things. She talks about animals that are nocturnal for hecks sake. And carries her purse with her everywhere full of bows. You know, just in case. She says to me multiple times a day that, "Girls love bows." (Thanks to her I currently have three in my hair. :)).

I absolutely love who she is as a person. Sweet as pie, but stubborn as a goat. She lightens my heart, and reminds me daily that I should be thrilled I'm a girl. Because she certainly is. I love this age. And her sweet, innocent confidence. I hope she can always have this type of self-esteem. Knowing just how fabulous she is. It is so refreshinly beautiful. I only wished I could see myself in the same light when i look at myself in that same mirror. What a lesson. What an example.

Isn't it amazing the things our children can teach us? Today I am grateful for the simple pleasures that come from being able to experience the gift that is motherhood.

Namaste.

PURE COVETING

I have been coveting this skirt for a few weeks now. It is taking almost everything I have to not purchase it right this minute. And talking about it is even making it worse. Did I mention I have a free shipping coupon.? And I have 15% off?


I tried to justify this purchase by asking Hubs if he thought it would work for my brother's wedding rehearsal dinner wear. He said no. He said that the wedding was back east (Jersey Shore) and it might not be dressy enough. But then I rebutted with the fact that the wedding was down on the shore (beachy). Then I switched my tactic up and asked him about wearing it to the breakfast the morning after the wedding. He just smirked at me. He could tell I was fishing for any excuse to buy this loveliness.

I realize it's a little quirky. Just like me. Not exactly formal, but not cheap either. It speaks to my bohemian side. Surely there are other occasions than just church that this would be lovely for, right? Please someone help me justify this purchase.

BOB IS AB-ULOUS!

Oh my good gracious! It's Bob. Or rather, "Boot Camp Bob"! Easily the best thing I've seen all day!

TUESDAY'S TIP babysteals.com

Okay, so I know some of you are aware of this little local company, but I thought for those of you that haven't yet heard, and are in the baby-having-stage of life, this might be nice to know.

There is this little website called babysteals.com. And every day at 9 a.m. MST they post a new baby steal. Think Steep and Cheap, except only one deal a day. You can have things shipped, or if you live local and want to save a few bucks, they have a pickup option as well.


Today's steal are these adorable Petunia Pickle Bottom slings. Normally running between $70-$90. Today at babysteals.com you can get them for 38% off. Thats $44-$57. Depending on the color you choose.



I literally did not go anywhere without my sling when my babies were little. It is the only way, in my opinion to carry your baby. Especially when it's the second or third child, cause then you can carry them hands free, which is fabulous.

Okay, so go ahead and click here to get one of these slings. And then add the link to your favorites and check back daily. It's also a great way to get inexpensive practical baby gifts for all those baby showers.


Happy Shopping!

MY LAST TV RELATED POST TODAY. . . I SWEAR.

Okay, yes, I do do other things besides watch TV, I swear. Really.

Sorry about this lame-o picture of Tara. It's the only one I could get off the website, and no it's not the best one to illustrate my point, but oh well.

And speaking of my point. Here it is:

Is Tara not Kate Winslet's long lost identical twin? I mean, except for the accent and the extra weight they could be twinsies. Right?

TEAM JILLIAN

Okay, lets talk bachelor for a few. Not to overlook my LOST post, which I'm really way more excited about that this silly show. But, I do still enjoy me some Bachelor, so we must discuss. And I only have one small comment out of Monday's ridiculous-ness.


How cute was Jillian's dress?


I tried to find a picture of her on the website with it on while she was standing, but no such luck. Seriously, how cute was it? It was adorable. Blue, strapless, sweetheart neckline, with the cutest white embroidery on the bottom. I love her style. It's just so fresh and airy. Not at all like most of the other girls. Which look like hookers most of the time. Hmmm. Maybe a bit to harsh?


I bet you can't tell who's team I am on.


Oh, and on my last Bachelor post, I have no earthly idea how I forgot to talk about the little itty bitty fact that DeAnna might be back? What The FRACK?! I freaking HATE ABC. (Except for their genius baby which is LOST. Then I love them.) What are they thinking? Deanna, babe, you are old news, and stand no chance. You broke his heart, and chose the snowboarder. Live with it. Anyway, I thought they make the contestants like sign a waiver in blood that they won't ever talk to the other dude they didn't pick or they can sue them for like millions? Is this just a rumor? Cause I thought it was true. And if it's not, it will be like everything I ever thought I knew about the Bachelor isn't' true. And then how will I go on with life if I know the bachelor isn't real? Those producers should be fired. Don't bring Deanna back. Boooooooooo! She's boring. Way too stinking serious, and frankly, she's not Jillian.


Okay, so I'm just a bit bitter about the whole thing. Just a tad. But really, Jillian's dress. Didn't you love it?

LOST RETURNS!!!!!

Seriously! It's finally here! I am so freakin excited. Hubs and I have been anxiously awaiting season 5 for quite some time now. And in preparation for tonights big event, we watched the entire 4th season this weekend. It was oh so much fun.

Go Oceanic 6!

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WHAT A DAY!

I can't tell you all what a fantastic feeling it is, knowing that Bush is out and Obama is in! Congratulations President Obama! Here's to Hope!

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TO MY DEAREST SON:

Dear Thing 1,

I would like to start out this little letter by saying, first off, just how much I love you. You are such a joy and make me smile often. However, I do not feel like smiling when I wake up in the morning half-asleep and go in for my morning pee, only to be greeted by a big smelly, brown poop log. This is not any fun, nor does it make me smile.

Then, again around lunch (which is never a good time to see poop), when I head into the bathroom, and find that, you have left me a rather large brown surprise yet again. We have discussed the fact that the toilet can flush. I have asked, pleaded, even begged you to flush, but it seems as though you are almost out to get me. The thing about this is, I thought I was finally free of the surprise poop logs. I haven't seen one since I lived with my brother, your uncle Dave, which has been many years ago now. He also seemed to find great joy in leaving his logs in the toilet to torment me. And the only thing I can figure, is that he put you up to this.

Well, whatever it is, dear child. IT NEEDS TO STOP. I can't handle waking up to smelly dookies, and then finding them again at lunch. It's just too much.

And, while I have you here, I'd like to take a moment and discuss the "socks" that you wore to church yesterday. Yes, I realize that mommy was running a bit behind, and in her foolishness asked you to dress yourself for church (which you did relatively well ), and get your shoes and socks on. Since your father had an early meeting before church, and since it was just me trying to corral you and your sister out the door, I just didn't notice. No, not until we sat down, and were settling into sacrament meeting, and you propped your leg up on the bench, and I saw just exactly how sneaky you are. Apparently I should have been clear about exactly what constitutes a sock and what does not. So, let me be clear here. Shin guards are NOT socks. Yes, technically you do pull them on over your feet, but there is nothing sock-ey about them. And at church no less? And in the rush, I do remember looking down for a half second at your shoes and seeing that they were black, and thinking how awesome you were to put on your black Sunday shoes. But once I sat down and had a chance to breath I notice they were your black sneakers with the skull and crossbones on them. Skull & Cross bones and shin guards at church. Your new Sunday school teacher must think I am mental.


I hope our next letter is a little more on the positive side. I love you, and happy Martin Luther King Day.

Love,

Mom

FAIR WARNING FRIENDS

So, yesterday I was asked to bring in dinner to a family in our ward who's father recently underwent knee surgery, so of course I did what any crappy cooking Mormon would do. I went to Costco.

And while I was there, I got the standard take-n-bake cheese pizza, cause really who doesn't love cheese pizza? The bagged Caesar salad, with the fresh shaved parm. Sooo good. Almost done. just needed a dessert. Cause really, everyone knows Mormons love dessert. So, there I was scouring the desserts. Pies, cakes, cookies, and then I spotted them. The Dunford Bakeries chocolate covered cake donuts. Sure I'd seen these before, and coveted them, but until now, I'd never had a good reason to get them. What was I, with a family of 4, going to do with 12 donuts? Other than the obvious gorge session, there was really no point, because everyone knows donuts are NOT good the second day. Only the first. Freshly baked of course. I'd always wanted to try them, but since I'm not really a fan of cake donuts (I prefer the soft fried version) in the past I just walked on by. But here was my chance. Send six with the family for desert, and keep six for us. So I did just that. And here is your warning:


If you don't want to experience the most fabulous party in your mouth you've ever experienced then STAY AWAY. And if you then don't want to dream and fantasize about this party in your mouth for every hour since, then STAY AWAY. If you don't want to think like a crazy person, then STAY AWAY.

I have seriously convinced myself after trying this loveliness that I could be perfectly content for the rest of my life to ONLY eat the Costco's Dunford Bakery chocolate covered cake donut. Seriously. I'm thinking that vegetables are over-rated. I've even considered giving up chips & salsa! (gasp!) Yes, me, someone who doesn't really even like cake donuts, or chocolate, is thinking it would be perfectly fine if she never ate anything else again. I am obsessed. And I don't even really like chocolate! It's absurd. So, I'm just telling you all, cause I love you. (Cyber-love of course) And I care about your well-being. And I don't want you to be so focused on chocolate donuts that you can't do anything else or think about anything else. I'm just trying to warn you. Cause yes, they are THAT delicious.


You have been warned.

SUCH GREAT NEWS

I just received a birth announcement today from two very dear friends who have been trying for a baby for some time, and I absolutely couldn't be more thrilled for them.

This news is the best I've heard in a very long time. It's amazing what a bit of really good news can do for you. My soul is absolutely shining with joy.

Scott & Luc, we are so excited for you both. Congratulations on this new adventure you are about to embark upon. I can't think of two more deserving or wonderful people to have this happen to.

Welcome little Gianna, welcome.

TOO MUCH TV?

So yesterday Thing 1 comes running up to me like our house was on fire, and says:

Thing 1: MOM, WE HAVE TO GO TO CHUCK-E-CHEESE!!!!!

Me: Um, why? No one NEEDS to go to Chuck-E-Cheese.

Thing 1: BECAUSE MOM! IT'S WHERE A KID CAN BE A KID!


Well, I guess I can't really argue with that.

MY FAVORITE TRAIN WRECK EVER

Okay so humor me for a moment while I verge away from my zen-ness (yes thats a word too) for a moment so we can discuss something very important.

The Bachelor.

That's right. Can we, for a moment discuss this craziness? Okay, so I've decided that The Bachelor is like a really, really, really bad car accident that you pass on the freeway. You know it's gonna be bad, really bad, maybe even disgusting and frightening, but you just can't NOT look. You know? And in a weird way, you think to yourself, those are real people in there. And then you feel bad for them, and want to know how it will all turn out. Will they be okay? Will they end up in the hospital? Mental institution? Married?

Just like Jason. You see, I'll admit, I've watched the bachelor a few times before ;), but I just HAD to watch this season, with Jason being the bachelor and all. You see, I got all sucked in during last seasons Bachelorette, and frankly was all but SHOCKED when Deanna picked that so-not-cute snowboarder. Now, don't get me wrong snowboarding is fantastic and all, but seriously? Over Jason? Yeah, I was literally screaming at the TV last season. Hubs thought about admitting me right there, but then he remembered how I am about my reality TV, and I remember how he screams at the TV while watching ESPN, and it's the exact same. Right?

So, when I found out they had picked Jason to be the Bachelor? I was actually, dare I admit, a bit excited? I mean, come on. How cute is Ty?


But we must discuss these loony bins, er girls, they find for the show. And really, I should know better by now. I've seen enough seasons of this crap to know that in order to be on the show you must be able to cry on cue. But somehow, inevitably, every season I wonder where they get them, and why oh why are they so darn emotional.

Well, and really most of these girls seem much to young and shallow to become a step-mom. I guess that's not really fair though, cause I bet really, there are alot of amazing women in that house for him to choose from. *wink*

But if I had to choose someone, I guess I kinda like Jillian, seen pictured below. She seems down-to-earth, funny and fun. But I'm worried since she got an early one-on-one and might not get another one for along time which could hurt her. Listen, to me. I'm ridiculous.


When I was looking through abc's website to find some pictures for this lovely little post of mine, I came across this one, and it just kinda made my jaw drop. How on god's green earth are you supposed to really get to know someone when there are two camera guys, two boom mike guys and two boom mike's in your face? Really. Is this romantic? Cause I don't get it. Sure it makes for fantastic tv (depending on who you ask I suppose. Hubs will watch some shows with me. Biggest Loser for instance. But this one he vetoed. He just flat refuses, which I sort of admire in a weird way.), but for finding a wife? Come on.

Well, I suppose the point of this post was to tell you all that I realize how insane I am for watching this show. And somehow in my little head, I am justifying it. Like since I know that it's bad for me, it's okay. Brilliant logic I know. Please don't think badly of me. Everyone needs a few guilty pleasures in their life on their quest to zen-ness right?

ZEN RAMBLINGS

My zen thought for the day is this: Why is it, that I, you, me, we, are called human beings, yet I act and seem more like a human doing. I am not what I do, nor what I have. For today, I hope I can live up to my name. Human Being. Being. Be.

For it is certain, that to be present we must first just be.

Namaste.

TUESDAY'S TIP The Smart Spin!

Okay, so a few months back I got my very first Tuesday's Tip Request. (I know right? How fun is that?) The problem? Tupperware. Kris's question was simple. What do you do to simplify and easify (yes that's a word) your Tupperware?

And really, my answer is very simple. I have The Smart Spin! And I absolutely love it! For a long time I had the old fashioned multiple sized lids and based Tupperware. And I HATED it. I loathed it. I really and truly could not stand it. Actually, I still do have a few of the really large ones, and I still hate them. I can never find a matching lid, or the right size bottom. Uggg. I don't know why I even keep them around.

Because now that I have The Smart Spin, I'm thinner, younger, and wait. . . just kidding. I was starting to sound like an infomercial for a minute. But really, I love this thing. I have it on my shelf above my microwave, and I just pull out the base. (Yes, it slides!) And then spin till I find my desired size grande, venti, or super-venti (ha. don't you hate that about Starbucks? Um, yeah. I will have a medium. Whatever that is.) So, you pick your size, and then here is the great part, all the lids are the same size! What a novel idea! And they have there own little spot. So handy, and so easy. No more rummaging around in a Tupperware drawer or shelf. Now, its all easy and compact and simplified. Wa-hoo.

If I was being completely honest, I suppose now would be an appropriate time to say that I abhor left overs. I really can't stand re-heated food. It's just gross. Or something. It's not that I feel I'm too good for leftovers, it's just that if I'm going to put calories into my body it better be worth it. And re-heated pasta? So. Not. Worth. It. So yeah, I'm not a big user of Tupperware, but when I do use it, I am no longer cursing at the Tupperware Gods. Also, I wish they had more large containers, instead of so many little ones, but other than that, this thing is pretty darn near Tupperware perfection. If there is such a thing. Anyway, I hope this answered your question and tupperware dilema Kris.

Hope you are all having a fabuloso Tuesday!

Have a problem or conundrum you'd like solved? Go to ask jeev. . . just kidding. Go ahead and ask away, and hopefully I can help solve your problems. Cause really, who doesn't need more handbag space? And no, I'm no expert, but I do find some odd thrill in solving problems. And yes, I was a part of Future Problem Solvers of America in 6th grade. If this doesn't qualify me to answer your questions, I don't know what will.

Zen Ramblings

Today, while I was in Yoga, a thought came to me, which I then meditated on during my practice. Why is it that in some poses or regions of my body I am extremely flexible, yet, I can't even touch my toes? Or my feet, or my ankles, really without bending my knees? Will this ever change? Perhaps as I continue to practice and stretch one day, I might be able to kiss my knees, so to say.

Perhaps then, there can be something said for also being willing to become more flexible in my attitude. Flexible in life. Surely, it will take practice, and learning to stretch my "attitude" muscles, but learning to change my outlook on life and bending to others is surely how my creator would have me be.

Namaste.

MY THEME FOR 2009

Okay, so I think I'm ready now to share with all of you my thoughts about the new year. Some things I learned from 2008, and what I hope to accomplish in 2009. But prepare yourselves. It's long. And wordy. And probably nothing you are interested in. But at least I will have a place to always have this. These thoughts.

I've always loved new years resolutions. There is something that speaks to me and resonates with me about starting anew. I actually get this same feeling when I start a new list on a fresh sheet of paper. Even when it's just things to be done around the house. I also really love setting goals, and having something that I can accomplish. I guess this must have something to do with my love of change.

In fact a few months ago when I was going through some boxes of stuff at my parents (yes, I own a house. And no, I don't feel the need to bring the stuff here. Just sort of belongs there. Ya know?) Anyhoo, there I was going through some old journals and stuff and I came across a sheet of paper that contained my new years resolutions for 1990. So, I was 10 at the time. And the things on that list are so telling. Telling about who I am as a person. Against my better judgement probably, I've decided to share the list with you anyway. Here it is:

1. Loose weight.
2. meet a best friend.
3. reach my reading goal every term.
4. get better report cards.
5. be nicer to my brothers.
6. excel in G.T. class
7. read the scriptures every day
8. get Noreaga.
9. go to dance class every time.
10. Eat Less!

Hmmm. Quite disturbing is the fact that my first and last resolutions have to do with losing weight, and eating less. So explains and confirms the eating issues I've had my entire life. Even at 10. Which by the way, I was a total twig. Reading that really made me sad. Wish I knew then what I know now. What I should have put on that list? Get better at spelling. Holy crap I was a terrible speller. Ex: Resolution is spelled Resalooshons. Awesome.

Okay, so enough of 1990. Back to 2009. What I learned in 2008. Well, many things really. But I would have to say most of my learning and evolving happened in the last half of the year. For example:

• Ragnar Relay was so hard and so fun.
• High School reunions aren't for me. Glad I went, but don't think I'll ever go again. The past in my opinion, is best left in the past. More on this subject later.
• Veganism isn't for me
• Vegetarianism on the other hand, suits me just fine. (however one side note here. I almost have a hard time with that word-vegetarian. Cause one of the reasons I couldn't do veganism, was because of just how difficult it is when eating out, and especially when eating at someone's home. It's just too hard and rude really to pick out meat and cheese and stuff. So, I've come to terms with the fact that I just feel better when I don't eat meat, however, It's not worth hurt feelings. So, if someone is cooking for me, and their food has meat in it, I'll eat it. And that feels good inside. Like what is right and best for me. Vegetarian when I can control it, and not when I can't.) Okay. Moving on. . .
• Girls Nights Out for me, are vital. Time spent with other women is so gratifying and fulfilling.
• It feels really good to have my food storage all taken care of. Go me!
• That I watch way too much tv.
• That hearing aids are super expensive. Especially when your child eats them.
• Remodelling a kitchen is best done while you are away.
• Finally found out what all the buzz was about concerning Harry Potter.
• Was introduced to Flight of the Concords which never fails to make me giggle.
• Found myself a new guru. Gordon B. you will be missed.
• Realized that writing is very therapeutic for me, and something I thoroughly enjoy.
• Was impressed and thrilled with America and it's decision for a new leader.

What I hope for in 2009.

Okay, well, I have to be honest here, and say, that I have been on somewhat of a spiritual journey for that last few months or so. Really pondering, searching and thinking. And I really, really, like what I'm learning about God and myself. Most importantly, this new found knowledge makes me really happy.

I've always been drawn to eastern religions and philosophies. Something about them, just make sense. In fact when people ask me that question that for some reason all people love to ask, "If you weren't LDS, what religion would you be?" I have always answered a mix between Zen Buddhism, Hinduism and Yoga (as a philosophy not necessarily the physical part). Something about these philosophies about life very much make sense and resonate with me. Perhaps there is something within these religions that I need to master. Need to understand. Need to realize.

And what I've found is there are many. But, for the sake of simplicity I decided to take the most important of all these philosophies and make it my theme for 2009. My goal, or resolution, if you will. And that theme?

It's really quite simple. Be Present. In other words. Live in the moment. Be Content. Stop hashing and rehashing and beating myself up about the past. Stop worrying, obsessing and fretting about the future. Stop the when thinking. For example. "When I lose 15 pounds, then I'll be happy." "When it's spring/summer then I'll be happy." "When, when, when. If, if, if." It's all to exhausting. What's wrong with now? What's wrong with me as a I am? What's wrong with what I have? What is wrong with what I already own? You know that whole adage. Wantwhat you have. Yeah. I need to work on that.

And the catalyst that threw me into my zen focus this past few months? Kung Fu Panda. Yes, the animated movie. It was something Master Oogway says mid-movie. He says, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it the present." And it just hit me. I need to start accepting the gift. Living in the moment. Stop mastering the art of distraction. Which really, I am a complete pro at.

Then I read THIS POST by on Aimee's blog where her sister is a guest rambler and shares a talk she gave in church titled The Zen Mormon. And this just was exactly what I needed at the time. Answered alot of questions I was currently meditating on. And I especially loved the verse in Philippians that she shared. {Philippians chapter 4 verse 11 reads: “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” } This is my new favorite scripture. And in turn my new scripture to go with my new theme for 2009.

Then, I was introduced and read the most fabulous children's book ever. Well, maybe not ever, but definitely top 5, and most assuredly best Children's book I'd read in 2008. It is called "The Three Questions" and it's written and illustrated by Jon J Muth. It's based on a story by Leo Tolstoy and a favorite of Thich Nhat Hanh, a Vietnamese Zen Master. And it's just fabulous. It is about this little boy who wants to know the answer to his 3 questions, which are:

1. When is the best time to do things?
2. Who is the most important one?
3. What is the right thing to do?

I don't want to spoil the book for you, but the answers go right along with my theme for 2009 and the attitude I hope to embody.

So yeah, this should be a most interesting year. I've started back into Yoga. Hatha Yoga, that is. I did Hatha Yoga for about 10 years straight and then for some reason quit. I've always loved yoga, but thought the other stuff, i.e.Yogas (chanting, Sanskrit meanings, etc.) was kinda weird and silly. But now, when I go, I have a new focus. A dedicated place and time for meditating. Which is so imperative for me. It's absolutely vital for me to be quiet. Still. Listening. Focused. I've started studying Yoga as a philosophy more seriously, and trying to practice it's teachings and become more Zen. Or rather, who my creator would like me to be.

I'm in no way saying I'm perfect, nor do I intend to be. But I'm striving to expand, evolve, and enlarge my understanding of what it means to Be Present. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't be scared off, if my posts have a tendency this year to be thoughts about life, and a little "zen" in nature. I hate to apologize, but I'm on a quest people. Not for perfection, but for advancement. Betterment. Stillness. Oneness.

Enough rambling. Happy New Year. And in this moment I am completely content.

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS

Well, it's that time again. The new year that is. I hope you all had a very happy and joyous ringing-in-of-the-new-year celebration. And I hope it was filled with things and people you all love.

Today I am grateful for all of the experiences and life lessons that 2008 brought me, and look forward to the new adventures and opportunities that await me in 2009. I've been thinking alot about 2009 in the past few weeks and what I would like for it to bring me this year. And there is a lovely post a-brewin' all about my hopes and wishes. But it hasn't worked its way out of my little mind just yet. Until then, I'm gonna go enjoy and be.

Happy New Year Friends!

TO THE LADY IN THE TRUCK AT THE BANK DRIVE THROUGH. . .

Okay here is a little tip for ya. Ready?



Windows are see-through. Really. So when your digging for gold and plucking your chin and neck hairs while you wait for the teller to give you your cash, people can see you. Rather, I can see you. And the teller can see you, and the people inside the bank can see you. You see glass goes both ways. Out and in. And really, I would normally just have looked the other way, but since you were in between me and the teller, I had to look your way. And I had to see you straining to pluck those hairs out of your neck, and digging deeper than any adult should. Ever. Especially in public. And it was gross. Really gross. And I threw up in my mouth a little bit.



And the worst part? When you did finally notice that other people could see you and looked my way. I realized that I knew you. And really? Not one of my favorite people. And frankly, because I'm a nice person, I won't call you out in public by name because I'm sure 90% of my readers know you. So, I will keep this little post anonymous. But please. For the love of all that is holy: KEEP THE TWEEZERS AT HOME!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

TUESDAY'S TIP: O TANNENBAUM!

So last year after Christmas my in-laws decided to give away their tree and get a pre-lit tree, so lucky us, we inherited their old one! Score! The only problem is, it's HUGE! Which is great, but since we've only been a family for about 7 years, we don't really have all that many ornaments. And since I didn't have a whole lot of money to spend on decorations this year, (I bought a few strands of garland from target, a couple boxes of jingle bell ornaments and lights) so I decided to improvise. And improvise I did. I decided to fill in the gaps with some Christmas cards from last year. And then as they have been arriving all month, we've been replacing them.

And I absolutely love it. Not only do they fill in the gaps well, but every time I look at the tree I am reminded of what Christmas is really all about. The birth of Christ, love, families, and all our wonderful blessings (friends & family). We are truly are seriously so blessed (ha, ha, I know).

Hope you are all having a fabulous Christmas Eve Eve!

TRAGIC NEWS FROM UP NORTH. . .

Got this in an e-mail forward today and actually laughed out loud. Merry Christmas!

NEIL FRIGGIN DIAMOND

Okay, so Friday night.

I wasn't the least bit excited to go see this concert. Partly cause it was Neil, and partly cause it was a work thing for Hubs, and honestly, I don't do the corporate wife thing very well. Makes me nervous cause I have a slight problem with diarrhea of the mouth. I say, seriously, the stupidest things ever sometimes. Needless to say, we went and ended up having a total blast.

So, a few hours before the concert started they had a dinner, games, and mingling. The dinner wasn't all that great, but I will tell you what was. PLINKO! Yep, walked away with twenty bucks. Hubs only got a key chain. Ha! Next a little Wii Mario Kart. Which I totally smoked Hubs in again. And it got me really excited for our Wii we got for Christmas. I'm sure there is already a re-match scheduled somewhere in Hub's super-competitive head of his. And the best part? At all of these little game stations if you won you got raffle tickets where they drew for a bunch of different prizes. And I seriously, I bet had 100 raffle tickets in that big thing. Then they finally drew for all the prizes except for the last two items, which ended up being the prize of all prizes. And who's name did they call? Hubs. Seriously. He maybe had 20 tickets in there and he ends up winning. Who in the heck is that lucky? But what did he win? Upgraded ninth row on the floor tickets to tonight's concert! The price on the tickets said $122 each, but I heard they were going for like $300 a piece. Score! (The other tickets were up in a suite).

And in all honesty, Hubs and I were going to sneak out after the first few songs of the concert since they had pushed back the start time due to the snow and we didn't want to have our sitter out too late. But then, we won the tickets on the floor, and well, we had to rock those. And they were AWESOME. And Neil? The guy can rock. It was amazing. I have no idea how he travels all over the country performing at 67. It's incredible. But to be honest, I've never in my life seen so many oxygen tanks at a concert. Hubs and I were just laughing cause we were the youngest people there by at least 20 years. Seriously. The entire row behind us were these white haired ladies all screaming for Neil. How fun.

And Hubs especially liked it, cause he's never been to a concert on the floor. EVER. And it's true, pretty much any concert on the floor is a totally different experience. It seriously makes it so much better. I mean, really, I saw Janet Jackson 2nd row floor when I was 15 and that my friends, THAT was a show. To be honest, not a lot going on with the Neil Diamond show (alot of walking, and winking), but it was still great live music. And you can bet I was dancing my ace off during Forever in Blue Jeans, and Sweet Caroline. Made me think back on all the great concerts I've been to in that arena. Paula Abdul, Salt N Peppa, Janet Jackson, Counting Crows, and a bunch of others that I can't think of at the moment. But yeah. So here are some pictures from our fun night out.

THANKS FOR THE GREAT NIGHT INSIDEOUT OFFICE INTERIORS. NEIL DIAMOND FRIGGIN ROCKS!

SINGLE LADIES? THIS IS FOR YOU

Funniest Single Ladies mock I've seen yet. Enjoy!

I AM TOTALLY SERIOUS ABOUT EVERY SINGLE WORD IN THIS POST

Okay, so this is just a little glimpse into my oh so very near future.

Just look at him rockin' it out his glitter shirt! But the thing that gets me about this little performance, is that well, it was TEN YEARS AGO!!! Um, what? The guy has some pretty sweet moves. I might have to steal some of them, for the next time I'm at a disco party. Honestly, I wasn't even a bit excited to go to this thing, except for the fact that it's a night out with Hubs without our precious offspring, but now, after watching this beauty of a clip, I am TOTALLY STOKED. I hope he rocks it tonight! Actually, I hope he doesn't rock it too hard and have a stroke or a heart attack or something.

Tonight is gonna be so sweet. At the very least, it should provide some good old people watching. And you better believe I'm gonna be rockin' my blue jeans.

MY DAILY LIFESAVER

Thanks to my friend Kris and her brilliant post, this little guy, aptly named Prince Noah The Elf, sits high on our shelf, as a constant reminder to Thing 1 and Thing 2 that they better be nice and obey their mother, clean up their rooms, keep their hands to themselves, or else! Seriously, best bribing tool EVER! You are supposed to bring this out during the holidays so Santa's elf can watch and report. Do you think the 4th of July is too soon to break him out next year?
Thanks Kris!

NEIGHBORHOOD GIFTS. . .

CHECK!

So, I can't tell you how much fun I had doing neighborhood gifts this year. And again, keeping with my cheap theme, I did them all for under $10. Wahoo!

Okay, so I needed something fun and a little nicer for some ladies I serve with in the Relief Society and so the first thing I did is check my gift card stash. And it just so happens that I had two Cactus & Tropical gift cards that I'd gotten from my mother for Valentines day and my birthday or anniversary or something. Which is so nice of her, but really, me and Plants (ironically) don't really mix very well. I usually end up killing them. And quickly. And then I feel all guilty and bad, so I don't usually do live flowers and plants. Unless they come already cut and you can put them in a vase and then they are supposed to die within a week or so. Just too much guilt. So anyhoo, I had about $85 on the cards, and I went in, and they had the cutest mini poinsettias. Ever. So I snagged up a bunch for gifts. And the cost to me in all this? $0.00, actually I was over by like .32 cents or something. Awesome, right? Thank you Momma!

Don't they look so cute? I love mini things. Just so charming.

Then, for my other neighbors and friends, I decided to make this awesome fudge I found via the Short Stop blog while I was perusing recipes using sweetened condensed milk. I was at Costco last week and picked up sweetened condensed instead of evaporated. Drat! Just what I needed. A Costco size load of sweetened condensed milk. But, luckily I found this little recipe. And lets be honest here folks, not only do I not have a green thumb, I also can't really cook. At all. Seriously. But I went searching for something simple And I found it. And it was soooooooo easy. Soooooo inexpensive. And sooooooo good. If you need an easy (and I mean easy. 5 ingredients people), yummy, cheap idea for neighborhood gifts, then please by all means, indulge yourself and your friends.

Chocolate Fudge

adapted from several others...

12 ounces (1 bag) milk chocolate chips

2 (1 ounce) squares unsweetened chocolate, optional (cuts the sweetness, which I prefer)

1 (14 ounce) can sweetened condensed milk

1 teaspoon vanilla

dash salt

Combine chocolate chips, unsweetened chocolate, and sweetened condensed milk into medium saucepan. Heat at lowest setting possible until chocolate has melted.Stir in vanilla and salt. Thoroughly combine.Spread mixture into foil-lined 8x8-inch baking dish. Refrigerate for at least two hours.Remove fudge by lifting foil out of pan. Peel away foil, and cut fudge into squares, or with cookie cutter.

And if you happen to be super crafty and have a mini star cookie cutter you could make your fudge like this, instead of just in boring old squares.

Aren't these adorable? Again with the mini. Too fun!

MY CRAFTY GENE EMERGES

So, for Christmas this year for Thing 2, I decided to go with a kitchen theme. I got this little set for her from Costco. I love that it's red, cause it will go perfectly along a wall in my own kitchen. And I also loved that it wasn't a butt load of money like some other sets I've seen. So, to go with the kitchen, I've bought her a bunch of wooden food and cookie sets, a metal pan set from Ikea, and a cute little tea set. I'm hoping she enjoys it. So, I wanted to get her a little RED apron to go with it, but after scouring Etsy and a half dozen traveling boutique shows, and being able to only find pink and blue and green aprons I decided to go ahead and make her one. Gutsy I know. I do have a sewing machine and thanks to Sue Hess sewing classes, I can actually sew pretty well. As long as there aren't zippers or buttons involved, I'm all set. So, I found this cute red cherry fabric and went to work. This is the finished product:

I'm pretty impressed with myself, actually. The neck has a Velcro closure, two huge pockets for cooking utensils, white ruffle edge, and a polka dot bow for a tie. I hope she likes it! Merry Christmas Thing 2!

TUESDAY'S TIP wrapping papper chargers

Hi y'all!

Today's tip comes courtesy of the crappy economy and upcoming tithing settlements. Last weekend we had a little dinner party and I needed a fun and inexpensive way to dress up our table. And where most people would use fancy shmancy things, I decided to use stuff I had, dollar store items, and wrapping paper. Here is how it turned out:


And the great thing about all of these items is the only this that is even slightly Christmasy is the wrapping paper. So I could use all of this again, swap out the paper and use different salad plates, and I have a whole new theme. Yay!

For the place settings I used basic white dinner plates. Dressed it up with a red salad plate I already had, and made the chargers out of some fun wrapping paper I found at the Basket loft. Add dollar store ribbon for the napkin holder, and dollar store party glasses and walla: The inexpensive party solution.

Plates, stemware and napkins: free.

Wrapping paper chargers: $6.99

10 fun party glasses: $10

Decorating for under $17: PRICELESS

ITSY, BITSY, TEENIE, WEENIE, METALIC, SILVER. . .

This, just might be the funniest thing I've read. Ever. Well, at least today. Check it out here.

YOU KNOW YOUR SICK WHEN. . .

• the house looks like a tornado hit, but you could care less.
• Thing 2 has painted an entire tube of pink glittery lip gloss all over her body (and now is paining a dish towel), and again, you could care less.
• Thing 1 is so bored that he is literally running around the house practicing his sliding moves on the wood floor, and even though it may look he is asking for a trip to the ER soon, you just can't quite seem to move off the couch.
• all you want to eat is tea, Tylenol, and thera flu.
• you were so desperate to feel even the least bit better, that you actually took some one's advice (against your better judgement) and rubbed Vick's on the bottom of your feet. Now you feel like crap and have gooey feet. yay.
• Never mind the wii and wii fit you asked for for Christmas. All you want this year is this:

Yes I feel like I might die any minute. Either from this evil cold, or from the fact that I've watched about 10 hours of the same Harry Potter movie (Did you know that before Edward was a vampire he was a wizard?) today. So why am I telling you all this? No, not for your pity, but rather to save you from the virus from Hell that has taken over my body. Here is your warning. It's out there. On shopping carts, doorknobs and little preschoolers boogie-nosed hands. And don't even for a minute start lecturing me about flu shots and such, cause I had one friends. I did. And this little beauty of a cold, is something else entirely. No little prick or sniff can save you from this torture. So. . .

I suggest you keep an extra-large tub of disinfectant on your back and start popping those airbornes/zicam/vitamin C's like they are candy. Seriously. You might look like Bob from What about Bob, but it will be worth it. Cause you won't feel this hellish pain. Consider yourself warned.


P.S. Thing2 is currently stuck in the toy cabinet. Is it bad that I'm considering not getting up? I sure hope Hubs gets home soon. Just kidding. I'm not that sick. But I did consider it.

FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY. . .

VOTE FOR ED!!!!!!!

Seriously, all you have to do is call this number:

1-866-613-0002

If you love me you will do this. Heck, even if you just tolerate me, and this silly blog, will you pretty please with a cherry on top, take 15 seconds and call that number. That is all. I swear. No one to talk too, nothing to say, just dial and hang up.

Okay, now let me tell you why this is of utmost importance.

• First of all, Ed has the coolest voice ever, and we have too darn much fun impersonating Ed to have him not be a part of the finale. It really would be tragic. Please vote for him, for his lazy southern drawl if for nothing else.
• He is better than Heba. Way better. That silly plea Heba put up on the screen was ridiculous. Heck, Ed already got kicked off the show, and then worked his butt of (literally) to get back onto the show, and you don't think he deserves to be there? Oh, and p.s. Heba, since you were actually the HEAVIEST women on campus, then it actually would have been EASIER for you to pull the same numbers and percentages that the other women were. Yes indeedy. A vote for Ed, is in fact, a vote against Heba. And just remember Heba is friends with Vicky. Eww.
• I know the only reason Ed gained those two pounds was cause the devil, oops, I mean Vicky talked him into it. And this just pisses me off. Cause if Ed would have just lost weight like everyone else than Vicky and Heba would have been below the yellow line, and everyone knows there is no way in the sam heck American would have let the devil in the finale. Then both Heba and Ed would have been in the finale. Which would have sucked, but would have been better than Vicky having a shot at it.
• Vote for Ed because I think that he won't bust his butt and lose as much weight, because he knows he is in competition with Heba, and he wants Heba to win. And if Ed gets in via votes, then Michelle will have a better chance at winning. And really, I'm not really so thrilled with Michelle, I just can't stand the other three, so yeah, I hope she wins.
• Did I mention Ed's sweet accent?

JUST VOTE FOR ED ALREADY!!!

And yes, I realize this is just a show. But it is a REALITY show, so it's kinda like real. Right? Yes, I know I need to get a life.

TUESDAY'S TIP teach your child to read

Today's tip comes courtesy of my cousin Laurie. I was telling her that Thing 1 is getting really excited about his letters and is eager to learn to read, but since he is my first, I had no idea how to teach him to read. I really felt like there was a window of opportunity and if I didn't fill it soon, it would go away. She suggested this book. It's Teach Your Child To Read In 100 Easy Lessons by Siegfried Engelmann. And let me just state for the record: THIS BOOK ROCKS!

We are only on lesson 10, but Thing 1 is reading! I'm serious. Only after 10 lessons, he gets it. Every letter has a sound, and he just sounds out the letters and he is reading. Even when we are driving in the car he will tell me what signs say, and stuff. It's way cool, and I love it! One thing that this book does that I really like, is at the end of each 10 minute lesson there is a writing portion. I got Thing 1 his own pad of learning-how-to-write lined paper (the one that looks like roads), and each day he does his writing on a new page. I don't let him write or color in this notebook except for our lessons. That way it can be his special reading/writing book. It's fun to see his progress from lesson one. I hope to keep it and put it in his scrapbook one day. And the best thing? He loves to write! And read! And being that I read about a two books a week, and therefore have a serious love of reading, I'm ecstatic to be passing on the joy that can be found in reading.

Seriously, it's my new bribe. Do you want to do your reading lesson? Then you must be nice to your sister. He literally cheers every time I tell him it's time for his lesson. I got him a few writing notebooks, and I keep one in my purse for trips in the car, doctors offices, and yesterday in church he literally sat and wrote his letters and numbers for 30 minutes straight!

So, if you are in the market to teach a youngster how to read, then I highly recommend this book. Ba-dum-dum.

OVER AT THE FAMILY BLOG. . .

Just wanted to let friends and family know that the rest of the Christmas photo shoot pictures are up over on the family blog. As well as Thing 2's dance performance video. Which is definitely good for a laugh. Hope you are all having a good one!

DEAR VICKY:

YOU SUCK!!!!

I am so friggin sick of Vicky. It's ridic. Just jump off the platform you frickin baby. Amy should have voted you off when she got the chance. I don't think I've ever hated someone on this show as much as I hate you. And hate is a very strong word. The only thing making me feel even a little bit better is the fact that she looked horrible after her "makeover". Yes, that is so vain and rude, but oh so true. I hope to Betsy that you retain fierce amounts of water this next week so that you will NOT be in the finals. Cause you suck!

I feel so much better now. Thankyou.

ETSY LOVE: JUST IN TIME FOR THE HOLIDAYS

Okay, so my new favorite addictive substance is Etsy. Seriously. So. Addictive.

Don't you just LOVE it? I mean, I could literally shop and search for hours. And have done so. But now, I don't need to feel even the least bit guilty. Why? Because with Christmas just around the corner I've decided to do the bulk of my gift shopping at Etsy and other boutiques with home/mom made items. The reason is two-fold.

First, I absolutely love to shop. Love. And I really love finding unique one of a kind items. It just gives me a thrill every time I find that perfect gift for that difficult-to-shop-for-someone. It's nice to know that the people I'm giving to won't be getting the same scarf and hat set from Old Navy that every other person alive is. It's the thrill of the hunt ya know. Finding the perfect one-of-a-kind gift that no one else will have. It sparks the artistic creative side in me. (And ignites my hunter-gather gene) And yes, I realize it would be much better if I myself made said gifts, but lets be real people. I'm the education counselor in the R.S; not the enrichment one. And really my problem mostly is that I have these great ideas, but then I'm not very crafty so that doesn't help. Apparently, when God was handing out gifts he snubbed me in the crafty department. Oh well. I'm over it.

And secondly, with America officially now finding itself in a recession, I feel that buying locally (somewhat) hand-made items the money goes directly to the hard-working individuals themselves, instead of some corporate Walmart-type CEO. Brills right? Cut out the middle man. Go straight to the crafty source. Fab-u-lous.

Okay, so to encourage you to shop Etsy this holiday season I've decided to link a few of my favorite etsy sites. These are some of the best-of-the-best. Truth be told there is alot of crap on Etsy. Lots of doily type toll-painted nightmares, but there is also a whole heckofalot of really super creative/talented people out there. And I think you should buy their stuff. So, here ya go. And if you are a relative, or expecting a gift from me this year, don't be bummed if you open your present come the 25th and it's no surprise, cause you saw it on here first. Fair warning, eh? Oh, and feel free to share your Etsy love knowledge with all my fabuloso Naptime readers and leave a comment with your favorite Etsy links. Come on. It's good for the economy, good for your wallet, and just plain fun. Happy Shopping!

• Silvia66 I am in la la la love with a few of these scarves and caplets. Perfect gift for that fashionista in your life. This one's got me drooling. And this one.
• Vol25 Found this etsy user via Aimee, and have bought a few of her prints. They would make a perfect gift for that certain someone who seems to have just about EVERYTHING. I have this one and absolutely love it.
• The Vintage Pearl These hand stamped necklaces would be perfect for Grammy don't you think?
• PosieandMe Okay, how about these adorable tooth pillows? Or the felt cookies and tea set?
• Retrofied These bags are just delish. Sister? Mother? New Mommy? Check.
• Knits By Knittin Mamma Have a kid? Or a neice? Or a nephew? Pretty sure these are the cutest knitted beanies for babies and kids I've ever seen. Ever. Oscar the grouch? Eyeore? Cupcake? Yes, please.
• VMJESS Know someone with a camera? Then these guys have got you covered. Cutest camera straps EVER.
• ChalkyDoodles Cutest oilcloth and chalkcloth aprons and tablecloths. So unique. So fun!
• RaimbowTree. Okay, so I have like 4 of these. And I love them. And I want this one now.
• Lucky Fiona Dog lover? Dunzo.
• A Bushel and a Peck How cute would these letters be in your best friend's house?
• Fandangled. Isn't this shirt a hoot? Your nephew is officially covered.
• The Full Spectrum. She is a local, and I have a few of her shirts. Too fun. How about this for that sister-in-law who just finished LotoJa?
• Another Local. Happy Little Artist. Love this.
• MD sparks Got a finicky teen? I bet she would love these. Or these.

Okay, I need to get back to life now. Have Fun, and please don't forget to share your fav Etsy links!

TUESDAY'S TIP Christmas Flicks

Get ready to set your Tivo's people, cause the annual Christmas TV extravaganza is about to begin. Oh, and your welcome.

Tues December 2 Santa Claus Is Coming' to Town Channel 4 7PM animated
Wed December 3 Rudolph Red Nose Reeindeer Channel 2 7PM animated
Wed December 3 Christmas in Rockafeller Sq Channel 5 7PM
Fri December 5 How the Grinch Stole Christmas Channel 4 7PM Jim Carrey
Fri December 5 Greatest Holiday Moments TV Channel 5 7PM
Mon December 8 A Charlie Brown Christmas Channel 4 7PM animated
Wed December 10 Christmas in New York Channel 5 7PM new animated
Fri December 12 Frosty the Snowman Channel 2 7PM animated
Fri December 12 Songs of the Season Channel 5 7PM
Fri December 12 Frosty Returns Channel 2 7:30 PM animated
Sat December 13 It's a Wonderful Life Channel 5 7PM
Sun December 14 Christmas w/ Tabernacle choir Channel 7 6:30 PM (2007)
Sun December 14 The Santa Clause 2 Channel 4 7PM Tim Allen
Mon December 15 Charlie Brown, want a dog Channel 4 7PM animated
Wed December 17 A Muppets Christmas Letters Channel 5 7PM animated
Thurs December 18 LA Holiday Celebration Channel 7 11PM
Sat December 20 ELF Channel 2 7PM
Tues December 23 Faith Hill, Home for Holidays Channel 2 7PM
Wed December 24 It's a Wonderful Life Channel 5 7PM

HAPPY THANKSGIVING Y'ALL

A few things I am thankful for:

• naptime. Nuff said.
• autumn. colorful mountainsides, sweatshirts, and good holidays.
• root beer. Served best with chips and salsa.
• pizza. Again, need I say more?
• Project Runway.
• The return of Lost in January. Fina-frickin-lly
• Preschool. Three full hours people.
• Utes beating BYU.
• Edward. Just kidding.
• Thing 1. Makes me laugh daily.
• Thing 2. So sweet and so silly.
• Hubs. Hands down my favorite person ever.

Hope you all have a good one!

I THINK MY 9 YEAR OLD NEIGHBOR SAID IT BEST. . .

"BYU STINKS LIKE POO."


Amen, sister. Amen.

GREAT GAME UTES!

FINAL SCORE = 24 BYU - 48 UTAH

frick yeah.